It's all "Relative"

Often we are quick to notice what we don’t have in our lives… we don’t have enough time, we don’t have enough space and, we definitely don’t have enough money for anything we want to do. That’s typical of the scarcity complexity & since the Law of Attraction works that way, what you think, you bring about, by thinking about your “lack of” only gets you more of it, which is why most people who are in debt, continue to stay in debt. Those who run around with no time, never have time for anything…they’re all caught up in the rat race & unless they become aware of this & change their thinking, they will never get what they desire.

That’s where the “relative theory” comes in…because if you think about it, everything is relative, as it depends on what you’re comparing it to. Take a look around you, that old sweater that was not warm enough, to someone who cannot afford to buy any clothes, is welcoming. All the leftovers which you are so quick to chuck in the bin, could mean survival for a street kid. Where you thought you didn’t have enough money to see to your expenses, be appreciative that you have enough money to food, clothe & house yourself.

If you’re going to compare yourself with a millionaire, you will look poor but if you’re comparing yourself to a beggar, you then become the millionaire. Life is all about perception- be appreciative for all that you have! Look around you & see the beauty & wealth because everything is relative & by feeling happy with your circumstances, you will attract more of it. It really is that simple.

Parallel Dimensions

This is dedicated to all those who love having their cake & eating it.
by manisha
Parallel dimension captures the best of both worlds,
The good & the bad,
the best & the worst,
the ups & the downs,
the yin & yang...
the ecstacy & the purgatory.
For if there were no pain , we would know no pleasure.

Paradise Island

Lets swim to the point of no control
In an ocean of bliss
Across the currents of passion
Where you will encounter the depth of my love
Until we reach the sands of time
On an island that’s erotic

A convergance of intellects
An arousal from within
Naked to hungry eyes
Caressing each other with sin
Burning with desire
New territories exploring

Two hearts pulsating
Intense heat generating
Bodies perspiring
Movements invigorating
Until utopian climaxing
And then pure breathlessness


Extreme Purgatory

Imprisoned to these depths of despair
Confined to this misery
Stuck in this bottomless pit
That’s the gate to my purgatory
So deep in this underworld
This is my living hell

A place to punish
Extreme pain & misery
Nothingness
Intense loneliness
Conflict
Confusion

Lies & envy
Deceipt & betrayal
Jealousy & resentment
Anguish & despair
Fears & uncertainties
Erupting from all this unfaithfulness


With every up, comes a down but with every cloud comes a silver lining.
Life is all about perception & beliefs.
We have the power to control our thoughts & effect our lives.
We create our own reality.

Happiness is a state of mind & as easily as we can hold onto moments of pure ecstacy, some of us choose to imprison ourselves & continue to punish & torture our souls.

Initially, I wrote the first part of this poem "paradise island" during the happiest part of my life. When you fall in love, you love the idea that someone could be your "ideal" when in reality, as time passes, the truth hits home & it's you who has wronged, because he always "was" - you just had your rose coloured spectacles on. I refused to see the truth yet it was always there. I become my own worst enemy & i imprisoned myself & i hate myself for making me so vulnerable... so open.
This is "extreme purgatory" (place of suffering where souls remain until they have expiated their sins)= purgatory of lost love. I loathe myself for lowering my walls, for letting this stranger into my haven. I start questioning why I acted so foolishly & my mind gets in a frenzy for there is no logical solution.
I remain in this abyss until I choose to see the light.

And even if I choose to be happy once more, ne'er again will I let down those walls, because it literally feels like rubbing salt on an open flesh wound.

When the student is ready to learn...

...the teacher will appear. How true that is...

Every day I work at Hilltop Empowerment Centre, I am continuously learning. It's so different & interesting. Sometimes in life, you feel you know everything but it's when you start working with the communities in rural areas do you actually start learning. It humbles me to realise that actually I know nothing.

Today I spent time with Robin & the German volunteers, Marit, Chris & Jana. We planned to go to Dimbaza business centre but ended up going on a tour of Da Gama textile factory, which was totally unplanned, sporadic, random , but a typical situation of how things don't always go according to plan in South Africa. The employees were so amazing & we watched the fabric being made from when it was just cotton wool right to when it becomes a fabric print & ready to be sold. A truly amazing experience which made me really appreciate how a fabric is made & all the effort that goes into it.

We also spent most of the morning talking about different situations that have arisen as a result of difference in culture & difference in philosophy. What is Philosophy all about...its of Greek origin and means "the love of wisdom", the act of asking profound question about very general things.

All my time with Robin & Rommel really inspire me to be a better person. They're such a loving couple & have empowered so many people on their quest to raise the education level in the Eastern Cape. They have actually set up 52 Business centres all over. They have a network of schools, police stations, churches, hospitals which extends not only in South Africa but also internationally. They live the kinda life I would love to live, not without struggles but they see each as a challenge to grow & learn.

Quote for the day: In every POtHolE, there is HOPE. (from the movie Mixed Nuts)

I am definitely ready to learn!

The Distance between us

A Wise Man(Rommel Roberts) recently told me the best example to explain the difference in philosophies between different cultures is:

If you had a river & you had a westerner & an African. Both would see the river & try to explain it & understand it but the westerner would be standing on the bank observing it flow by whilst the african would be inside it, swimming along with it trying to make sense of it.

There is no right way or wrong way- their ways of thought patterns, or how they filter information is just different. That is the reason there is so much conflict in this world- people can view or experience the exact same thing yet both perceive it differently hence the distance between us.

Hence Forth, let us step out of our shoes & feel what the other is feeling before we make judgements. Change your view, change your perception & lets diminish the distance between you and me...

Peace, peace, peace...

Loves fire burns

LOVES FIRE BURNS
My heart is burning with love
All can see this flame
Igniting my passion, invoking desire
But its playing with my mind
loves fire burns
Can you feel the heat of this eternal love?
Its flames are rhythmically dancing
Extreme dizziness & completely mesmerizing
Into a drunken haze, its making me insane
Loves fire burns
Silently its flicking me into rapture
Until my spirit is aroused
Into this false euphoria
& then severe intoxification
Loves fire burns
Nothingness
I’ve now lost all my senses
Drunk with the ecstacy of your love
Only a hangover & memories of our love
Loves fire burns.
by: Manisha

This poem is about how dangerous love can be. Each stanza appeals to the senses. First you “see the flame”, then “feel its heat” but it moves in “silence”, which is why in the end, there is a loss of all senses. Love is compared to a fire but also entwined with the behavior of a drunk person,ie. Someone who is out of control.
The 1st 2 lines of every stanza represent the good feelings represented by love,the ecstacy & extreme happiness. The 2nd lines always represent the down side of love which we fail to see because we go into it so blindly even though there are always warning signs (loves fire burns represents the warning signals)
It starts off really slowly with subtle hints or warnings but then gets out of control until it's over.
It ends when the lover is burned & the poem ends with the warning, signifying no hope.

The whole poem represents love between humans as ultimately we get burned by each other. What we should actually be seeking is love from within ourselves- from our core being, from our true self, which is essentially pure love or the love from God.

Ode to my dad

Get well Soon Dad!

For those of you that don't know. My dad just went in for a major hip op on Wednesday.
He has been in ICU for 2 days & just came out of ICU and is still in hospital until next week. This is his 5th hip op during his lifetime & he is seriously like a cat with nine lives. Apart from this, at some stage he has also had a quadruple bypass. He just keeps bouncing back & each time gets a new thirst for life!

Here's to a speedy recovery!

In search of Happiness...

This is one of my favourite views in East London. It's amazing because it overlooks the vast ocean, which is never constant. Every day after going to Virgin Active, I usually park here & just take a few breaths & admire God's beauty. At that point, I'm already charged with so much energy & endorphins from training & when I stare into the horizon, it revitalizes me & it's blueness pacifies & calms me. It's at this point that I feel at peace & one with the universe.

So often, we get caught up in our busy lives where we are ocntinuously asking for things & wondering why we don't get what we want when in actual fact, all you have to do is just stop. ... & then just BE, not even be yourself, for not even you know who you are, but just BE. & when you give thanks, your eyes wil suddenly open & you will find that you are so lucky & you actually have everything you need to be happy.

But what is happiness? Happiness is a state of mind & you know you're happy when you can feel it all through your body. It's a feeling deep inside & since feelings are the language of the soul, let your soul speak out to you...find your happiness.

Today take the time to search for your happiness...

Cycle From East London to Port Elizabeth

I am going to be one of the non-staff members who will be cycling from East London to Port Elizabeth in December so please feel free to contact Carol Wathon to sponsor me, donations start at R100. Much appreciated for all your help so far! Thank you...
The following is an article that appeared inthe Daily Dispatch a few weeks ago whilst I was in Germany:

2008/09/04

ST BERNARD’S Hospice has decided to engage in an extraordinary feat to raise funds for their Paediatric Palliative Care Programme. In the early hours of Monday, November 3, four St Bernard’s Hospice staff members and two non-staffers will endeavour to cycle from East London to Port Elizabeth in four days.



St Bernard’s Hospice general manager, René Wienekus, who will be leading the pack, says that they have been talking about and procrastinating over this project for three years and finally decided, at the beginning of the year, to do it.

She further adds: “It sounds like and most probably is pure madness, especially in light of the fact that we are all mothers, not cyclists! We have given ourselves four days to get to Port Elizabeth. On the first day we need to reach Mpekweni Beach Resort, a distance of 105km, seeing that we can’t exactly sleep on the street when it gets dark. However, we have decided to do this project and believe that we will pull through, because we really care and believe in the work we do.”

Once the decision was made they started preparing for the challenge. Curves Gym in Vincent offered to assist with cardio-vascular training to get the team into shape.

Deon Leach from Body Classique is helping them with spinning classes to get them “cycle ready” and EL Cycle Surgery has sponsored their very bright cycling shirts, while Wienekus picked Felt Cycles’ co-owner, Dan Taylor’s brain for tips regarding training.

The team managed to organise their own bicycles, while the back-up team will be assisting from two vehicles, which Nissan Automall have sponsored for the event.

“This project not only shows our diverse approach to raising funds, but also our willingness to get involved – even to such a personal extent – to ensure that our financial targets are met. To me St Bernard’s Hospice is not just a job, it is a passion, said Wienekus.

“Our motivation with this project is to raise an amount of R100000 to help maintain and ensure a safe haven for our current and future paediatric patients and their families. This feat will also help put us on the map with regards local and national funders, who we rely on to help fund our cause.”

She said they want to promote the event in the media to launch the event locally and to encourage as many people from EL, the Eastern Cape and businesses to join them in “this exciting and unique fundraising project” by coming on board as sponsors.

“Sponsorship can be done by donating an amount per kilometre on the trip. We have already received sponsorship from Bill Heaton of Heaton Building Contractors – he will donate R2 per kilometre per cyclist – if we reach the Mpekweni Beach Resort on the first day. Several cash donations have been made.

“If we can secure our goal amount of R100000 before we start peddling, the team will be highly motivated and it would make every uphill, pothole, puncture, chafe and cramp worth the while,” she said.

The four-day destination distances are: East London to Fish River Sun (120km); Fish River Sun to Kenton-on-Sea (47km); Kenton-on-Sea to Colchester (83km) and finally Colchester to Port Elizabeth (45km).

For further info or sponsors, please contact event co-ordinator Carol Wathen on 0437210051 or e-mail her at carolw@sainet.co.za.

Contemplate this:

"There are people who see things & ask why?, I see things & ask why not?"

or

"An inifinity of forests lies dormant in the dreams of one acorn"

or

"We are not humans having a spiritual experience but spirits having a human experience"

Volunteer & Save our world

I recently spent 2 months in Germany partly volunteering, partly training to become an international workcamp leader but also representing South Africa in the new AALA(Africa, Asia, Latin America) program which IJGD(NGO in Germany)has launched, called the Weltwaerts program. This was sponsored by the German Government & is a new initiative to encourage intercultural learning, self organization, social learning, ecological learning, emancipation of sexes & voluntary work. German volunteers wanting to help communities but also gain a new perspective on the world offer their services & skills to developing countries. This particular program last 12 months, however we did learn about medium term volunteers (2-8 months) and workcamps(6 weeks)

The other AALA participants were Hoai from Vietnam, Lesley from Equador, Jovana from Mexico, Rose from Kenya & Sheila from India.

What I found amazing is how caring, considerate & conscientous most Germans are.It's so great they have systems in place for everything & all is so structured & well planned & all citizens obey the law! Although I had lived in London for 3 years & it was also a first world country, Germany is still so much more advanced. Everyone was so warm & welcoming & opened not only their homes to us but also their hearts. It was astounding that so many youth were willing to give up their time to help other countries & most were so knowledgeable & keen to learn about other cultures plus spoke atleast 2 languages.

***Whilst jogging 1 morning in the forest near Gottingen, I accidentally dropped my mobile inbetween heavy logs & had to, after a serious struggle & many scratchmarks, abandon it there. I was very heartsore so was dumbstruck 3 weeks later when I got a call from a policeman who said someone had found it & actually called every single number on it until they found out who it belonged to.***

What I learnt:

Being in Germany made me realise how much work there is to do in South Africa before we get anywhere near how it functions. The good thing is I'm full of ideas & have tremendous energy to put all my ideas into action (becos ideas will always remain ideas if no action is taken)

It raised a few questions like:

1. "why are more people going to other african countries & not South Africa?",

2. "If there are so many people eager to help, why do we not have clearer channels for volunteering in South Africa?", also this is an ideal opportunity that is bound to increase tourism, help the rural community & provide a plaform for personal growth so,

3. "Why are not many people in South Africa aware of volunteering?",

4. "Why doesn't our government do a similar funding scheme if there are so many benefits to volunteering?"

In terms of Personal Growth for myself, working in the forest & doing hard manual labour was ideal for thinking & planning & i've come back with more of a thirst to learn more & to help the community. It has inspired me start my own organisation so I can provide more opportunities like this for other South Africans. I would also love to start learning languages. Xhosa would be essential but then also German, Spanish, Russian at a later stage.

If you would like more information on becoming a volunteer, please contact me on funkymani@gmail.com